Pretense

If you're not my true friend can you not give me false hopes because I don't want any more rips in my heart?

If you're not satisfied with who I am or who I am to become, then please stop the pretense.

I can't have any more holes blown through my heart.

I know I'm not an easy person to like and I know not everyone can like me [for not even He was liked by all so how can I] but please.

Just don't lie to me.

Are you my true friend?

Can you honestly look at my eyes and say that you are my friend because if not, I don't want to bear any more pains in my chest.

Just a side note.

I know I can't expect anything in return in a relationship, and I really don't.

I'll give to anyone. Who am I to expect anything in return?

I can deal with not receiving anything in return.

I can't deal with fake smiles and words.

These break my heart and mind apart.